So I'll love you whatever you've become

And I thought I could live without boys. =(

Together we're invincible

Blegh I haven't lost any weight. I ate at Carousel just now and it was fucking great. I love the sushi and sashimi. Shiok. I am like totally bored fuck. Okay I don't know what else to type. I need to eat less, study more, play lappy less and hug my mother more. My mother cried yesterday. I can't bear to see her cry anymore. I love you, Mummy.

The panic, the vomit

I am so bored and daft. I finished Her Fearful Symmetry and the story's kinda morbid :(. It's about death and stuff but I read it cause I love the way Audrey Niffneger writes. I don't know how to spell her name. And I haven't started on any homework fuck.

The salamanders and the hissing cats

Dustin's

I love this, it's super pretty and somehow, meaningful. I spent Mummy's money too much today. I feel bad cause I always make her sad and cry sometimes that it makes me cry even harder. Why can't I just shut my gob and satiate her? I guess it's human nature to hate your mother sometimes.


(Dustin's the one looking bored)

Ain't he hot???!

Here comes the Pacman and the Wolverines

I decided to blog again haha. I am fucking bored and I cut class :D. I need something good to read or even do. Arghh. HAVE. TO. STOP. EATING. Why can't I stop screwing my life? That's for being phisolophical(?) God, I hate spelling. :P

I NEED TO CUT MY FRINGE NOW!!!! I have not even showered. I like not showering on free morningsss with no school to bother me. I love my smelly, Hello-Kitty wearing niece. <3>


My Bucket List: (everyone needs a Bucket List!!!)

1. To fall madly in love with someone
2.Someone to fall madly in love with me
3.Get married in Lake Como, Italy(heh, shut up)
4.Have children(again shut up)
5. Live in Dublin with my mummy
6. Write novels
7.Meet Dustin Kessler
8.Hug and kiss Dustin Kessler's cheeks
9.Weigh 10 kilos lesser
10. Make my mummy a happy person



I hope I have time to fulfill that last one. Love you, Mummy. (everything else in the list seems pretty shallow huh? But's my Bucket List not yours!)

Bang Bang Cherry

Pink Dinosaur!!! Haha I wanted to say Pink Dolphin but it came out Pink Dinosaur instead. And the aunty gave me Pink Champagne at last. :( Too many pinkish drinks huh?

Shai told me about this Dustin guy yesterday in the morning and I am really really touched cause he had only weeks/days/hours to live because of his rare heart condition his father had too. It feels really weird when someone tells you when you''re going to die and you're just counting down the days till the angels come to wrench your soul out of you and you close your eyes with people thinking you're dead when actually and queerly, you are still able to hear their thoughts and yours. It's true what they say. An ending is only a beginning. But I am more than afraid of this beginning. I loathe thinking of death. :(

Went to send far and mir to the airport for their NZ trip. Cried oh god. It's fucking contagious. And I had trouble walking in the airport. :[ Took fucking funny videos. Hope they watch them in the plane. :)

Oh and did I mention? Dustin Kessler is fucking hot. I keep having these sentiments that eventhough you're born drop-dead gorgeous, breathtakingly beautiful, a prodigy, with nice, long legs, hands of an artist; there's always a flaw in you. It's not particularly bad or unfair, just the way it is. Dustin is a eulogized drawer and a talented musician, has looks that of a greek god but has a short life to live. That's just how god wanted it. I don't know how my story will end up but I'll just let it flow until it's time to say,

The End.

That the fire in your heart was out

The weather is so fucking cold now and my nose's fucking block. I can't breathe right. My hands are all pallid and cold. Today is so boring, I can melt into a puddle.

You are a vapour trail in a deep blue sky

Blegh, I think I am gonna be sick. I came home with a fucking aslebfirfry headache and my body's all hot and shiverish now. :( The chemistry practical just now was tiring cause I was repressing the awful throb in my head and the fans were all switched off cause we had to use the Bunsen burner to warm up the experiments. I came home straight cause I was afraid I would get caught in the rain. I think I am going off to rest. Buh bye.

Her fearful symmetry

This is cute but I don't have the slightest of what animal this is. Perhaps it's a horse but it's too beautiful. Perhaps it's a unicorn but where are it's wings? Perhaps it's a zebra or a donkey but where are the stripes and the large, bunny-like teeth? Does it even matter what it is?


Today was an indescribable day. It was spent on school, looking at horrifying/ vomit-inducing pictures of privates and Mac. God, I ate like an elephant today. :O My WLR has gone haywire!