fucktards.

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Hi. Today was a fuck day for me. Yeah like fuck serious. You can't imagine the number of fucktards among you.

Can you hear my heat beating, can you hear the sound

Huh didn't feel like going to school today cause yesterday in class I was feeling like super sick/uncomfortable/ feverish and my nose was a nightmare! I also have a killer sore throat and headache. So decided to not go to school and stay away from my sickish classmates. Like almost half the class was sick and six people were absent yesterday! Jarrat even had a box of tissues and a box of panadol on his table!

Ahhh...I suddenly like have super many homework to finish! Malay compre, maths... bah! And yay I just found out I got highest for Malay! And did I mentioned? The new class we have for malay for super kecik! Like it feels cramped but super comfy. And I sit in the middle :D. I am going out later to grab some clothes for friday. And me and Mummy are planning to go to Far East to get cool stuffs. And last night, I took out my Barbie stuffs and it was super super cute!!! Reminds me of my younger days..

And I like totally can't pay attention during Malay class! Cikgu Zainal is blabbering in his monotone and I couldn't be bothered to listen to him. I had to ask my friend(who I didn't expect to know) the answers for the compre! Sad, I'll kill him if he didn't give me the right answers. And and and...I am hooked to mangas and indonesion dramas!

)))): super sad now suddenly.

Almost laughed myself to tears, Conjuring her deepest fears

It was raining in the morning! Like the sky was this lugubrious taint and the perceptible wind was placating every pore of my body. (See I am trying to use chim words in every post from now onwards) I conjured a study timetable for myself and I have promised to follow to it closely. And I have requested for Math and Biology tuition from Mummy so that my presumably lost intelligence will resurface. Hopefully. I will start studying at appromximately 1 in the afternoon and it would be an unfathomably injudicious decision to leave my measured time for revision to waste my time away in pointless activities. :D

Love is a burning thing, and it makes a fiery ring

I have fuckish results ahhhh. I am like super not going to slack in my studies anyymore especially math and fuck humanities!!!!!!! Wish me luck. :(

I would have to at least score an A2 for math and A1!!! for electhistory if I really want to push up my overalls. Huh I am in such a messed up mood now! Am going to run later for three rounds. Thursday-2.4km. Train train train!!! And why are there so like so many people scoring fuck-good marks in Ngee Ann? I had landed myself into the deepest of shit.

When the sun fell in love with the moon, all was golden in the sky

Yay. At last I went jogging in the new Seng Kang Riverside Park!!! Which was superbly gorgeous man!! I was like shouting and screaming and Mummy was scared of the river! Then we saw this bangla with a rectangular piece of styrofoam which he used as a makeshift raft. It was crazy!! He didnt even have a life jacket and he was rowing himself on the water with his hands! Hysterical like fuck! Oh god, yuck, tommorow is school. But we're going to get dismissed at twelve so fun!

I fell for you like a child

Gahhh. My nails are freeaking painful!! My legs too. Like I cannot even walk properly cause my knees keep bending. And shittt I cant run cause of the boosha weather. Went to SengKang Library just now to study alone. I think I spent my time there productively cause I managed to finish my Math exercises like finally! And there was some band from Ngee Ann poly playing in Compasspoint. So freaking loud lah but gosh I hate those people who cover their ears. Like pre-schoolers okay! It's music, just appreciate it. And yay I got Ring of Fire sung greatly by Adam!!! Oh I just found out I didn't bring back my geog file. Boosha...

And now some piccys



Barbie Puzzles!!






Mummy's retard face during her bday




And lastly...my only memory of Koref

There is no end to what I'm saying

Hi!!! Haha I sound so happy right when I am not!!! Had semi-enjoyable time yesterday for the 15 hour thingy but mostly it was dreadful except for the part folding the stars with Li Yi, Priscilla, Ying ying and Tauhidah!! Haha Seng Kang rules! And I will never never forget the part when we taught Li Yi how to say "kornek" and "juboh"! Funny like fuck. Pity Abdullah. :D So the night turned out to be suckish but I suppose someone cheered me up when I was in the bus home!! Thanks!! And I am currently on my weight-loosing diet! Feel like seriuosly shitting.

OMG!!! Adam is super hotsxzzzs

Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me

Hah just came back from camp and I can barely open my eyes!! I didn't sleep the whole night okay except for a few minutes'nap that was interjected with lots of other stuffs. Me, Zulaiha and Jun Wen ended up sleeping on the quadrangle!! Which was super duper comfortable but so cold!! I didn't even know how I ended up there but the last thing I knew was being woken up by Amirah, thinking it was already 6, and going down from the 2r4(?) classroom with Zulaiha. So I was like blurblur waiting for the rest to come down from the other classrooms and only barely awake. So Zulaiha suggested we sleep for another fifteen minutes so I thought wake-up time was postponed so slept. I think the three of us looked funny lying on the quadrangle in the middle of the morning. Then after waking up, I only realized that I was semi-conscious throughout the night haha! So I was trying hard to keep straining my eyes open during the team bonding games and what fuck-lame laser quest thing. The gun was super heavy!! Ahhhh....I want to sleep, man.

You could love me if I knew how to lie

Gah, I have been eating so muchhhhh. And not sembahyanging!! Okay give me a tinee bit credit-I just mandi hadas okay. So camp is the best slimming programme for me!!! Yay my aim is one meal a day so I will only have two meals in two days!! Yay how about that huh? Then after camp, I shall inflict myself to a painful yet effective weight lose regime! See my diet menu if you must:

Breakfast

Wholemeal bread with nutella(yum!)
PLAIN WATER

Lunch

Honeyy Stars(haha I know who eats cereal for lunch? I do!)with milk
Apple

Dinner
NO. NO. NO!!

Nicely done huh? And bye bye lappie as I shall embark on my slimming programme the next morning! And I don't even know if anyone is reading this lame old blog. Please give comments or I shall close this blog forevvaaaaaa. Ok maybe not. Malu only if noone comment and I decide on not closing the blog. But please give feedback. I am not asking much right? Just comments what. Won't hurt your fingers to say hi or something right?? Tag boxes are lame. Comments are old-school and old-school are comments and comments are cool. Hahaha!!! Okay lame.Dont forget to comment okay? Okay or not? Later I get my guys to beat you up if you don't comment okay!!! For real okay. This is not a joke!!

Nevermind. I am just humoring myself. :S

Give your feet a chance they'll do all the thinking

I bought a turquoise Nike water bottle and foolscap today! Yay at last I have a water bottle and foolscap thanks to Mummy. Ahhh, and she also bought for me ****** the elephant! :D love you eventhough sometimes you can be a little bit blurblur and I'll get a tinee bit pissed with that. But still...You're the BEST MUMMY ANY GIRL/BOY CAN WISH FOR BUT WILL NEVER GET!!!

Okay so I have been thinking about how much I dread running in sec1/2 and haven't been running 2.4 for those two years and how stupid/lame I was not to!!! So I am going to start training yo! And there's a new park in Seng Kang that is like a two-minute walk from my house so I shall go there and run laps!! Oh did I mention...me and Mummy are addicted to Qi ji popiahs! Oh and there's camp on Monday. :/

I am having a picnic tommorow. Bye!

Evenings turned into sunset nights

Yay!! I got a super duper DISTINCTION for POA!!! Wow I am super duper happy cause I had thought I wouldnt get any A1s for CAs. So happy. And and and...today was great cause the beruks werent in class!! Yes like first time they're not present for school throughout the lenghty term. The short beruk got suspended hahahaha and the tall one don't know leh. Maybe knocked his head awake. And I finally bought the Biology assesment. I have yet to study for Math and I am going to get the silver headbeand tomorrow. We're getting report books tomorrow too. I hope I only get 1 C6 please please please!! And I hate studying when tomorrow is the last day of school. )): I hate Neo and I am missing Miss Chng. And I have two more enemies but shall not mention them because I am a kuai(sp?) girl.

I am going to jog every day of the holiday except for Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. And I am on a strict food regime!! As in diet but diet doesnt sound nice. And I hate Pe. I hate my thighs as well. And my hair.

One more drink and I'm in hell

The scariest thing happened just now. :o There were like people shouting my name which I thought wasn't my name since it sounded like "shah, shah!" all the way until me and Tauhidah reached the toilet door and we stared at each other, shocked. So yeah whatver it is either they want to tease me/ embarass me infront of a crowd in the canteen or simply didn't call my name at all. The two options are I am certain very likely especially the first. Doesnt matter. I am used to a laughing stock. :D

Played with water just now. Okay-okay fun I suppose. Got back bio. 15/40!!! I am uber uber proud of myself like fuckkkkk. Went to Popular with Zulaiha after that and saw the Biology assesment book I wanted. Will go there with maneh on Thursday and buy the silver headband as well.

And did I mention? I super hate people who don't mean what they say. Like I said his friend's face looked like he was masturbating and he laughed then later told his dear masturbating-face friend what I said and said I was weird. Or when you promised your own daughter that we would go to the mall to eat when really you just wanted to buy a loaf of bread and only mentioned it when your daughter is already dressed. I am really particular about this and I just loathed to be cheated.

Spun the stars on her fingernails

Lalala...I am craving for something seriously GREASY now like poppeye's (sp?)! Ah fat I know but I am having menses and whenever I have menses, I crave. Haha. So got back malay...19/30! Lousy like fuck. But I had been thinking I would fail since I didn't understand the compre passage at all and I took my own sweetest time to finish the paper. And I realized that I don't like tucking out my shirt cause whenever I do, it gets all messy and irritating back. So if you guys see me not tucking out my shirt, it doesnt mean I want to look like a minah but I am just too fuck-lazy to tuck it out when it is all nicely tucked in. :D

And god.........I am so fucking bored with NAS people. Moot point.

I hate hate hate people who brag about their social life and how they go out with this, this, this boys and what 'fun' things they do together. Yeah call me jealous all you want lah but to me, you're still a fucking neneh. You see, I hate a lot a lot of people. And sometimes i hate myself more than I hate the hated people. I know I am weird. And fuck I just want to stop thinking about being ugly and start thinking pretty! Haha...cause I believe being a pessimistic and worrying too much doesnt take me anywhere but misery.

You thought you were alone but I was with you all the way

Ahhhh...I suddenly have the fear of not gettingt married when I am older gah. Cause I had the weirdest/ stupidest dream ever last night but it was kinda melancholy. I dont know lah but it involved some cute cute chinesey-looking mat and me in a wedding dress?? So yeah I am afraid of that saying the dreams dont actually ever come true. But that guy was like mat-looking so that is a minus point. But the tragic thing is he died cause there was this sudden tsunami in Singapore! Haha yeah weird and scary.

So I just found out that I need need need to marry a Japanese guy (hot) or at least a chinese guy (hot hot) to keep my japanese roots from fading totally. And I need to get in touch with my japanese blood more and start eating more sushi instead of Asam Pedas! Haha stupid but hey, sushi is better tasting than Asam Pedas in my opnion. So if I marry a Malay guy in the future, my grandchildren wouldn't remember their true blood and completely forget it. So yeah...this is lucidly rubbish. I didn't have the chance to speak to my late grandmother about her genuine origins because I seriously didn't expected the loss. Anyway, I heard from my aunt and mum that she didn't like anyone asking her about it, like it is a taboo subject or something. What I only know is that my great grandmother who was chinese married a japanese soldier and when she gave birth to my grandomother, she gave the baby to the woman who delivered the infant. So drama the mama.

So I am collecting maneh to buy nice Nike bag! I need the kaching by Monday!! And I figured that I have earned two enemies in class hah. So yeah I don't care lah because I hate them equally back but I have have HAVE to see their beruk faces every five days in a week. Fuck lah kau ingat kau siape?? I don't really enjoy my days in class anyway, feel like killing them all except the ones, mostly females, that are nice I will spare their lives. Fuck I hate the 3r4 nyonya. Kepo like punat.

She's the smoke, she's dancing fancy pirroutes

Fuck. Fucking hate TOH that big fat tetek belambak neneh. She's the punat of all punats. What she thinks I am an idiot at Chemistry. I got a fucking 30/40 lah! I am not bragging lah but fuck that tetek lah. Gah I hate Chemistry SPA and I prefer Biology SPA multiple times! I rather have that crocodile hunter teach me seven days a week than see that Lynda. Muke tak mandi seribu tahun. I wanted to put up her first name initially but I fear that someone who is probably some unmentioned mortal enemy of mine reads this and informs the school then I'll get suspended for hating teachers and blabla. Which is a no-no for my impecabble school records. :D

So like last Friday was a bitchy day for me. I sucked at npcc. I sucked at Chem SPA too. Lalala. Today went Popular with Mummy and bought that pink file I wanted and the Social Studies+ History Elective and Math assesment book. I wanted to buy the Biology assesment book but it wasn't in stock. And I fucking hate fat malay mats!!!! So fat, they think they are good-looking somemore! Yuk, yuk, yuk. They were like so fucking pedophilish looking at me when I was queing up for food in KFC and was like "Oi, cantik," I wanted to puke lah! Yuky malay mats. I bought a cute silver headband at Helen too. :)

I am supposed to do the assesments but like always pemalas macam babi. And I super miss my Dickies like akjsgdekde. Love you, Dickies. I realized I haven't been too appreciative of you. :/

So I need you on Monday. Sorry Zulaiha!

Okay I am going to unlock my blog now. Or maybe not.

With a word she can get what she came for.

Ahh..I screwed my SS and Emath paper! Oklah whatever, let bygones be bygones. Today I ate super many(fat) so I have decided to not eat the next day and the next day and the next day. And god, I thought I managed to forget about ducky during the weekends when suddenly I found myself in a limbo of my own uncertainty. :S So I have decided to boost my self-esteem(haha) and get him something for his birthday. :D But he is fuck irritating. Moot point. And I think I am going to fail my Bio SPA. I am never good at SPAs since secondary 1 since I am a super harebrained person.

Puh...okay now I am starting to feel depressed. Oi, pondan, talk to me lah! Okay, you won't. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Why I cant be just be model-pretty?? Then at least you woulod notice me right? I am so wasting time waiting for you to talk to me when undoubetdly you won't! Okay, now I will try to forget him again. Forget him, forget him. This is just a stupid fucking stupid crush. Why cant you flirt Natasya?? Okay nevermind. Forget, forget.